just guessing, but the pace of change, difficult moments strung together to teach each of us our own needed lesson, is in high gear right now. so much suffering, so much beauty, and reams of information about how to detach, trust the process, give generously. had a wonderful photo session with tiffany, 2 months shy of giving birth, and in the same weekend letting go of yet another layer of attachment to my own children - understanding that it is driving the communication with their mother deeper into conflict. how to get the message through to them that i am with them every day? prayer is the advice that comes from my trusted servants, walking backward helps. i danced backward most of the night last night, found myself weeping into the ribcage of a woman whose father died 2 weeks ago. then we all laughed and had a feast.