Well I have not been sleeping if that is what you have thought. We have been having a lot of turmoil lately. My mom is close to dying. She has been circling the final pasage thanks to breast cancer and the apparent incompetance of local medical personal. I get in to see her when I can, but I hate to say it, real life is not like they say it is on Tv. Most of us just don't go in the snap of the finger with all the familly able to get there. We have been observing this, this death watch, for there is really no other way to call it for more than a year now. Sadly they call us and tell us it is time for her to go and we have called everyone and gone in just to find that todays terminal mini crisis has passed and she thankfully survived. Maybe it can only be described as empathetic exhaustion. I am just trying to let it in God's hands with my occaisional reminder notes that I slip him in the form of prayers. I pray for her recovery, but at the same time I pray that if it is her time to let it be merciful so she can pass in comfort.

  I don't know anymore, those of you who have gone through this before probably are aware of it. Let me know if you have any supportive Ideas. It is coupled with the friction caused by my family not getting along,you know, this one doesn't like that one, that one has no memory of why. Enough to make you envy the bald for they have no scalp to render by pulling out the hair...

  I have recently discovered this old work of mine, it was once confliscated by dear old Mom. Don't get me wrong I love my Mom , just not all her actions. She left it deteriorate. We actually found it when her medical attendants were cleaning. They grabed a peice of apparent old cardboard to use as a dustpan. My sister saw the other side and stopped them. Frame long gone, a little yellowed. It was only intended to last a few weeks, did win an A+ though and had it displayed at school, but is now 24 yrs old!

  I have also been working on 3 paintings and a few drawings and pen and inks. Will post when they are done! I have a ways to go. I get a little scittery when I am stressed. I have been exploring my creative nature with the english word. I have been writing some fan- fiction stories. You can see my latest post at FanFiction.net. Follow this link:

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3993509/1/Pheonix_of_Cylon_parts1_2_and_3

  Oh and the final indignation of the month is that I amongst many others was graced by the designation that my work is theft-worthy. Yeah we had a round of art theives trying to buy multiple artworks on the zhibit.org community with bogus cashiers checks. Now would  you please let someone know that my work is also purchase worthy? I win contests and people try to steal them, go figure. But my sold item list is short. Maybe I should hire Sally Fields to do an info-mercial. Lets call it  the  "Only with your donation today can help save the self esteem of an artist today..." LOL. Think I would sell any more that way. Why in the hell do people like those cookie cutter paint by numbers deals that they make little 3rd world kids paint and sell for under 19.99 us for a sofa size work. It sure isn't on canvas! They usualy fall apart in 3-4 years! What a waste, I guess I should stop raving now. Oh My FanFiction Pen name is dau191.

Wade