on conditions prior the experience.
thought that Spiritual Awakening comes at special moment in life. By
“special” I mean, at the time person is ready, spent time in
peace and balance, purified thoughts and a lot of wisdom. I never
heard anybody saying: “I have an Awakening, I am a new Me.” Even
now people are not comes forward to share their stories and the truth
is I have been too. A year later I decide to do it and here I am.
Took me 2-3 months to process after that night and even people saw
the transformation, I kept a secret in my heart, doubt and worries
that someone's jealousy and a misconception will “break the magic
spell” At the time this happened, I was in deep, dark hole.
Physically ill, living in agnostic pain that never leave my body, and
emotionally at the end of my robe, loosing last bit of hope for the
future, alone, in complete despair. I was praying to the Universe to
have a mercy and take me away. For days and weeks, barely moving
around my home, hardly remember where was my cat at that time. She
was there, looking at me from corner, scared. I was asking for a
miracle, the death. I had an ovarian cancer, stage 3. A ski accident
cause 2 knee surgery and multiple herniated disks on my back. Heart
beat shallow and emotional wounds was so deep scared and wounds
hurting in my chest, even I had no physical problems in that area.
There was no more power in me to fight. My life was a battlefield,
but when I won the battle, I was
seating at exact same chair with a pillow on the back, in front of my
computer. When pain shooting through me I did breathing exercise that
was slowing my heartbeat, relieving the edge. I closed my eyes, there
was no light other than from the monitor. Tears running and I felt
how truly intense the moment pleading for the resolution.
Universe had a resolution for me. I have been initiated Reiki years
ago and saw astral light before many times. And I saw it that night.
Comes from the corner of my living room, but It was much brighter,
much brighter. Its look alike the sun, covered with thin white
Its came to me as you see on this picture. Reached inside , covered
shallow beating heart and hold it so softly with so much Love , like
mother holding a newborn baby's head. The white astral material
covered all sides of my heart and start the healing process. Superior
Powers with the touch of gentle hand (feels like) lightly
squeezes, ache bad so I couldn't hold a mourning exhale. The yellow
light made of tiny molecules continuously changing form by connecting
and separating. 4 minutes later the hand came out quickly as appeared
and begin disappearing at the corner of room ceiling. I felt absolute
peace, soundless and pain free.
Featherweight beautiful cocoon's
response gave a soothing feeling of mind and soul as
Astonishing new experience, a reward or misinterpreted
thoughts ( if such thing is possible) I always doubt about
everything. There was a moment in my life, when a split decision
saved my life. But the decision on many other important things take
me me days and weeks. Some even months and years. But when I finally
decide, it will be my final answer that never changes. First new
feeling of unconditional happiness, worry free as 4 years old child.
Its left me secure and peaceful feeling.
I couldn't believe it.
Everything the same dark room with a nightlight, mail on the floor
near the mail slot I remembering this morning I couldn't bend over to
pick up. Cat was sitting in front of me then she licks one time my
forehead, right where is a Sixth Chakra. Then she look right above my
head and I could see by her strange reaction (mixed with light fear
but not panic with unusual for a cat patience with a signs of deep
respect in her big dilated eyes. Since that time she does the same
next morning I wake up, a brand new, healed, transformed. I walked
barely touching the ground, weightless for two weeks after. I was so
happy and worry free, everything has brighter colors, grass, trees,
like I never see it before. I went to the store and got everything
for Christmas and within 2 hours transformed my place, which just
yesterday been my burial.
was confused, and “old” me would be fixating on the confusion,
investigating all about. But a New Me, my Higher thinking has
different, logical and non-debatable answer. “I will know all I
needs to know, when is the time right”
you believe in miracles? I didn't believe for long time. But my
illness since, went to complete remission, back pain is tolerable and
not annoying. I walk and ride a bike on the beach, and most important
I can think the way I never knew I could. A whole new Perception.
Within last year, learning, listening Higher Conciseness. Evolve and
continue my journey with a favor new chapter. Happened before
Christmas and transformation began and rose fast and dramatically.
Higher thoughts, changing perception, super powerful work of
Prana-Chi the door is open and I please to meet with Higher Mind.
That was almost a year back. Higher Mind in control and not let a low
brain thinking. Grab it negative though and saying the reason why
not waste a breath on the subject, satisfied with that and just a
peace and balance, in silence formulating wisdom quote, favored mind
stretching excessive. My new artwork compared to old ones showing the
transformation, the energetic powers, the Enlighten. Evolution is
still in progress, stay tuned.