DREAMS IN DEEP ASTRAL
Buddha Dream
Buddha's word of wisdom
for me. Lotus Flower. Theosophy
Shortly after Awakening, I had a
dream. I saw a young Buddha holding a lotus flower in his hand,
walking up the stairs that was made from a rocks on the side of big
mountain. I want to ask him a question saying:"The Great
Master a...." He put a finger to his lips and said: "Shh,don't
said that. I have to climb all the way up, and there will be a door, on very top. Only when learn, climbing over
these big rocks, slippery and unstable, but wont make it an uncertain, it is the challenges and I have to win. A winner
will have the key from the door on the top of the mountain". I started climbing behind Buddha, and
he was young and strong soon he were far away up to a hill. I
got so disappointed of myself, thinking:" How could I even assumed, that I can climb the wall of the wisdom with Buddha?! Sure, this is just a dream but, " I 'm not the only one". And I decided to ask him a question, the one. I've been
searching all my life for the answer." Then I heard a voice
of Buddha sound like an echo from the top of the stairs. He said: "
You've have been climbing up for a long time. and learned more, that you
believe, you had learned. Stop the self-doubt and not be so hard on
yourself. When you get there, you'll find something, left for you
by the door. The door will opens as a book, and in that book you find
your answer, about a Higher purpose in this life. I climbing for a little bit, and soon, the
door appeared in front of my eyes. By the door I found a white lotus
flower. I've picked up the flower and the door slowly starts opening. That was the end of my dream.
When I have such a profound dreams, I'll not stop until all the
dream puzzles will be connected. Didn't took me long time until I'd
found the direction to that "door" I knock on the door very
softly, “holding a lotus flower in my hand”. The door opened and
walking inside I knew, this is it. The home of the Theosophy. I
found the place that holding all my unanswered questions. Followed
my dream and found the most important answer, after spending a years
of searching. A dream with a Buddha – a motivation to take an
action. Because I am so nearly at the end of“climbing my
mountain” of hopes and doubts, learning hard from own mistakes. All
the rocky mistakes I make in the past had been processed inside of my
mind and was long process, until its turned into a sand, and sand
crystallized into a solid crystals of wisdom...........
From my journal “Spirituality. Dreams and Awakening”
Please accept my apologies for mild to moderate
grammatical mistakes and incorrect sentencing. I learned how to
speak English (when came from Russia, my father lived in US) from
everyone I've meet by listening and asking a lots of questions.
Self-educates in writing without of books because back when I
started, I couldn't yet read. Writing by ears using musical skill in
piano playing, writing and reading notes. Trying whatever works, and
it does, but still my writing is far off from the curricular
standards.
ASTRAL TRAVELING EXPERIENCE
There
was a dream, I thought is a dream
But
it was something else very bizarre and extreme
I
was somewhere I got shot and killed
I
saw myself dying feel pain in my heart it was real
Watching
myself dying from the above
And
feel weightless, fragment, transparent
Flight
faster that light I went somewhere and saw indescribable stuff
Then
I realize where I was and the things I have learned
Even
for me was too much and too overbearing
I
had no fear something guided my mind told me not to worry
I
felt her transparent presence explaining the story
She
helped my brain to processed transitional stages
Without
of her couldn't pass this test for a human being is too outrageous
She
told me than place where we at called astral level 7
Its
a place where a soul going after you dead, look like a fragment busy
train station in heaven
There
some other stuff I saw in different stages
Souls
of the bad people fragmentation, some lost some suffer locked up in
invisible cages
Some
of the things just have no verbal, no words for explanation
I
learned a lot how human past lives effects on the soul
fragmentation
I
am better keep to myself it was so amazing
If
I tell this to anyone in the Earth they would think I am crazy
Shouldn't
supposed to be there until I am died
But
she assisted this travel and now I know how to make it right
It
was not easy way to come back to the ground I didn't awake
I
was pulled, felt like after drown in deep waters of river or lake
Gasping
for breath and felt after a little bit dizzy
I
was lucky to come back at all after travel so far, it wasn't that
easy.
2001
From Poetry book "Infinite Peace"